Nadine Sellers

War

I see ugly, I see mad, I see angry, I see sad
My colors have slowly darkened
wars have come so near
Across oceans man has harkened
weapons have become so dear
Ugly shines the mood of men
through vengeance or innate greed
though irreconcilable acumen
separates soldiers of different creed

I see ugly I smell war I remember other sadness

Mothers hang their heads in shame
as their babies grow into warriors
surely they are not the very same
children they nursed with errors
fathers teach primal honor
pride motivates territoriality
fear is the mother of horror
intelligence hardly rationality

I hear bombs distant to me yet nearer the dead

December 2007
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Red Pulp Underground
My Name Is

i walk in the fog of potential halls -
blind to numbers on doors or levels -
i climb and descend on piles of letters
with dumb digits that spell large numbers -
which spell my destiny - one by one -
fingers crossed -  i write more letters-
which spell my life - one after another-
blind responses declare me-
of no current value - i no longer exist
between birth and death – i am only alive-
for those who are present - and breathe of me-
chest wrapped tightly - i climb-
on the ballast weight of former hope-
feeling my way - on legal staircases -
in labyrinthian halls - i am paper – baggage -  garbage -
carpets wear underfoot - to the tread of dreams -
involuntary gestures - i am business -
my feet hurt - my head hurts - and in between -
the whole system aches - between books -
pamphlets - instructions in quadruplicate -
i pay one and all - to erase what
nine other heads grow back - on the other side -
my tongue is raw - my mind naked -
no strength left - no will- no more paper -
no more money - no more- no more -
they have used me up - my name is -
where do i go - what is my name -
Plenipotentiary Ambassador
of Helplessness-
PAH-

To natives and immigrants, to the Pah-Ute who inhabited this land long before the printed word.

December 2007

Freedom For Pay

Your government, courtesy of your taxes
Has offered your son thousands of dollars
To enlist in its quest for peace.
The monies, it is assumed, will go
To world wellness or another new car.

I used to think freedom was free,
That ideology was food for man,
That armies were for soldiers
and good fought evil or so
I used to feel that defense
was only the reverse of offense,
I cheered for independence
morals and tolerance
I watched the wars of history
move colored pieces across maps
I knew dates, crowns and royalty,
de-facto memory
Now . . . I know that patriot
was just another name
for Huns and Vandals
who without shame
tasted of the food and the women
of another game
So when you see a flag
think of legionnaires and militia
of guerillas and fortunaires
who perform mercenary deeds
in the name of whose nation?
to close whichever frontier?
to kill whatever god?

Remember:
trees bleed from gunfire
and the soldier of fortune
is indeed well fed.

December 2007

White

albino truth taints true colors
with many shades of white,
white collar--white crime
white smoke--white joke

greed cuts a pale white scar
steal the ice--kill the ivory
white wine--white line
white rain--white pain

snowblind in a wild white world
pure daughters drown in inequity
white sale--white bread
white teeth--white tail

dressed for a short eternity
with garb of false quality
white gown--white lie
white hope--white dope

covered with slow white rot
pristine by law--pale by choice
white trash--white cash
white deals-- white wheels

as we straddle the white line
on the road to elsewhere
white poor--white lure
white core--white lore

please celebrate with us
the funeral of the air
white dream--white cream
white knight--white might

in this--our atmosphere of dread white
we carry the torch of  white light.